Yeah.. I don't know what I should belive or do anymore.. I'm just sitting here, crying, and crying, and crying! I'm not the person to cry, really.. But now.. I just can't stop it!
Remember I told you I can't contact Christel? And no one else either? Well.. Håkon talked to her brother, and her brother told us that: She found out she has a life from the computer!
And that's okay, I understand that.. But! When he asked why she didn't answer the phone, he told us: She don't want to.
I don't know if I should belive him, but.. I haven't talked to her in a long time now, and don't know what I should belive! I know she isn't the person to do something like that, but who knows?
I'm confused, and sad.. I don't know what I should do! I asked Rikard if he could talk to her, if she logged on while she was on school. He said he could, that's a relife.. And Mika's trying to contact her now, but I don't know if Christel's answering her.

Anyway, I'm still crying.. I want everything her brother said to be a lie, I want Christel to answer me! I want to talk to her, I want her to tell me how she feels.. And if it's true.. I don't know if I can smile anymore, I mean it.. She means a lot to me, and if she just leaves me without a word.. I'll die!

I LOVE HER! And I want her to know..